Kagrra/Dragon Head, Akiya x Nao

2006-08-03T08:32:29Z

Fandom: Kagrra/Dragon Head
Pairing: Akiya x Nao
Title: But you promised
Theme: (#21) Beach
Author: Nao-chan
Rating: PG-13?
Summary: I always wonder...am I truly strong enough? Suicide sounds so easy...but...
A/N: First fic I wrote in first person. Nao's POV. Written originally written for the 30_dates community on Live Journal.

"Sure Nao-chan. I'll meet you at the beach at 5 I'd love to..."

"Promise?"

"I promise. Don't be late ne?"You told me with a smile...It looked real next to some most of the smiles you put on for pictures, or during an interview. I believed you.

I guess that was a bad idea as well. Of course you didn't want to spend time with me, who would? I drag myself through the sand slowly, crawling to the edge of the water like a cat stalking in the darkness. Turning my head down to watch my reflection shimmer back at me in the falling darkness a sickening feeling boiled in my veins.

Me, a man too ugly to have the appearance as such. So I hide behind a mask that takes on the look of a woman in hopes that I won't look so replusive...to you anyway. I guess that must be why you may have agreed in the first place? In the band you are openly BI to us, we know you lean towards women, so I was foolish enough to think I had a chance.

I truly am pathetic...

You promised to meet me three hours ago, and look a fool, I actually waited for you. Looking to my mobile phone I write in an unsent text message and stand forcing my body, stiff from the cold air, towards the cliff that stands just a few yards away, dropping the mobile phone from my hand for anyone at all to find it, expect...by then...It might be too late.

My steps waver slightly as I walk along the unleveled surface of the rock, my body feels weak as well, a jacket may have been a good idea, I wouldn't feel so numb, but for what I plan I think numb might be best. Lowering finally to my knees I grip tightly as the crumbling rock as I glance down to the sharp rocks as the waves jolt to life foaming slightly as they crash against the earth that will so slowly wear away from years of abuse.

I've always wonder...Am I truly strong enough? Suicide sounds so easy...but...can I really put myself into eternal sleep?

I just want to...

Black...darkness...nothingness...I don't remember what happened...am I dead? Did I jump?

No...No I'm warm. My eyes flutter slowly, but I still see the darkness. A bright twinkle up in the sky brings me to logic...It's dark...because I'm still up on the cliff and it's still night time. But, I still feel warm.

A small splash hits the corner of my mouth, and I take the time to actually look in another direction besides up.

I'm being held in his arms. Akiya, he'd holding me. But how is he here? He never came to meet me. "A-akiya?" I learn my voice is the awful raspy sounds scratching my ears, and I feel his arms stiffen around me before tightening.

"Nao-chan. Nao-chan I'm so sorry. I...I thought that, thought that. I'm so sorry." Small sobs break up his words, and the voice I adore so much sounds so broken and hollow.

"You promised...me...that you would be here, you...shouldn't have come at all." The words caused me to choke as my cruel tone set in, crystaline tears pricked at my eyes bitterly. Bitter...just like me.

"Please don't do this to me..onegai? I tried...I really tried Nao. And then when I got here...I...you're phone...message..."

I say nothing in response to this, but I now let the tears fall freely from my eyes. He's trying to make me feel better, so I don't feel to ugly, trying to coax my away from the mask. But I can't let it happen, he's already rejecting me from behind my mask the one everyone calls pretty.

We both fall silent now, crying as well, but I don't know why Akiya is crying...for me? I don't think that's possible. No one can see me, know one knows what I have become. No one.

"Aishiteru Nao-chan..." The silence shattered like red stained glass, falling to the ground like a red rain and shining so beatutifully as the sun now shines freely, no long blocked away by the window.

A small sniffle leaves me as I banish the world that was threatening to claim me in my mind. "W-what?" A small stutter rings freely.

"I...I love you Nao..." I look carefully and seen the pain gathering in his eyes, and on his face, he expected a rejection.

"D-do you mean that?"

"Hai...of course I do." He whispers carefully to me, closer to tears once again, I can see the glimmer in his eyes.

I don't respond the way he was expecting of course. Instead I pick myself in slow movements to settle in his lap, picking my head up finally to look his directly in the eyes, I lean forwards and press a small kiss to his lips.

The moments fly by slowly, as though time was slowly down for us. Akiya, who always has been a bit shy replied to my kiss. We spent those frozen moments in a passionate kiss before the need to air became stronger and we parted gracefully, a string of mixed salava binding us together. Until...

My tongue slipped from my mouth slowly as I broke the bind sucking the string into my mouth, leaving the imp of Kagrra with an adorable blush on his face by my actions.

A smile softly and rest my head on his shoulder, my arms entwining around him, as his did his around me.

"I love you too."

Fan Fiction by Nao-chan.

2006-07-20T13:54:34Z

Ne, I'm Kit, I go by Nao-chan in my writing. I don't tend to use this journal but I think I may start ne? So all of the fanfictions I write, most that will be posted in communities on friends lock to the members, will be posted here, also on friends lock after this post. So, if you ever want to read the writings in this journal if you have at least 2 things in common with me, and you would be kind enough to comment, state them and ask to be added more then likely your good ne? n-n But you may want to know what kind of things I write before hand, yes?

Well, my fan fictions spand from:
Dir en Grey, Kagrra, Naito, Ancafe, Gazette, Gackt, Hyde, and so many more.

Mind you, if you have a request for a fiction and like my writing I would be happy to write it for you.

The typical pairings I use are:
Kaoru x Kyo *
Die x Shinya
Totchi x Kyo *
Kanon x Totchi
Kanon x Miku
Aoi x Ruki
Reita x Uruha
Hyde x Gackt
Akiya x Nao *
and more.

The three *'d pairings are ones you will more then likely see the most.
I will not write the pair KaoruxToshiya, don't waste your time looking to it or asking about it, I hate that pairing with a passion. Don't like it? Too bad ne?

I'm pretty picky, so the time it takes me to write fan fictions can spand from a week to a few months depending on the pairing and idea I have, and how complex the plot happens to be.

Comments, questions, suggestions? Feel free.

That's all for now ne?

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Kagrra/Dragon Head, Akiya x Nao

Fan Fiction by Nao-chan.